: c.H.A.p.T.e.R : It's all about MEE

actually aku skang tgh x de idea nk post something but maybe i can express something that actually confusing me a long time ago...ape yang mengelirukan myself until now is aku sendri don't whether i'm understand maksud love or like..semenjak aku masuk ke utmkl dlu, aku da jumpe a lot of people...baik,buruk,cun,lawa gile, ok jer, and macam2 lagi laa..one thing yang aku suke tgk when aku kt public or kat dlm U(lagi aku suke..hehe) 'aku suke observe org'..hehe..i mean tgk kriteria2 yang ade kt org tuh especially girls laa..hehe

sampai satu tahap, aku rse cam aku da suke kat budak nih....klu jumpe je mula laa x tentu arah..(buat2 macho..hehe..tp time tu aku still cute lg..haha)..my heart degup kencang juge wooo..n aku x mampu nk tgk muka die especially mata die..4 your info,until that time aku x pernah bercouple lg woo..so aku sendiri pn x tau prsaan aku nih btul ke x...tp lepas lme2 aku jd csi..bru la aku dpt tau yang die da ade bf..huhu..aku trus stop..dlu seyesli aku bkn senakal aku skang...aku jd cmni pn sbb my past n a lot of my attitude change bile aku dh kurus mse last sem aku kat dip utmkl...rmi sbnrye aku jmpe girl2 yang aku minat..tp just sekadar minat jer laa..

When aku aku msuk degree lakk..jgn ckp laa,time dip tu x rmi mne pun girl2...tp kat sini bersepah woo..tul la org ckp, girl2 je yang byk kt ipta compare dgn laki...time degree ni la aku couple ngan seseorg but x lme pn..x smpi 3 bln..huhu..org tu x perlu la aku mention..yang dekat ngan aku je laa yang akn tau pun...mende ni sume jd pn coz aku confuse with myself..n i'm very sory to her..it's all my fault..not her..

After that aku realize yang aku like to somebody yang not mine..mksud aku kat sni, bkn ye aku suke jd perampas..time aku couple tu aku x rmps dari sape2 k...i mean,somebody yang aku suke msti dh jd milik org len..tu yang frust gile smpi skang...huhu..and the same thing happen now..i'm confuse whether i'm doing the right thing or not....aku x nk laa something happen becoz of me....dlm hal ni die mybe anggap aku sbg kwn die je...for me is undescribable...somebody can say,it's not yours n jd kwn jer laa...easy to say but hard to do...but the only solution is wait,and wait,and wait, and wait.....mybe the silence is the killer but i rather kill my self rather than lost all the people around me....

Allah is all mighty...maybe now is not the right time for me....hope the time will come..